Dear Diary,
Today is the first day of November, 60 days before we approaching 2023. Time does fly too fast, it's like yesterday we entered 2022.
Alhamdulillah for my life this year so far, no big and fussy issue, life runs smoothly.
Yesterday we went to LPPKN Bertam for my husband semen's analysis. The result turns out not good, seems like the supplement that my husband religiously take is not functioning well. Honestly, I feel a little bit down compared to previous assessment.
I feel like give up, I feel like we have to many sins that Allah has delayed our prayers.
And today I got my period. Hmm no wonder about the feeling I felt yesterday. Actually the heartache is still there but I think it's normal. I just need to accept the feeling, let it flows and I'll be okay in a short time. InshaAllah.
No, I didnt blame my husband at all, not his fault, it is what it is. We tried our best and will continue trying. I just need some time and space for this feeling to flow away.
Allah knows best.