1.10.2020

 Dear Diary,

Today is the first day of October. 2020 runs so fast, feel like yesterday is still March. All because of Covid when people had to remain at home for almost 3 months, even now thing never been better. 

Yesterday I heard news about Atiqah's Mak Tam, whom I knew is fighting against cancer but it becomes worst lately. I feel sad because I know her personally, a very humble and kind hearted auntie. To make thing worst, her husband had to quit job because of Covid. May Allah ease her journey and the family throughout this toughest test.

Dear God,

I'm very grateful for the health and rezq that You has granted to my family and I. Please forbid any harm from us, physically and spiritually. Please protect us from poverty and evil eyes. You are all Mercy. 

22.9.2020

 Dear Diary,

I miss you. Had been busy lately. Yesterday I went to Lexis Port Dickson, make a site visit for our retreat program. The hotel was not as expected, for me it's not worth the value. 

I'm thinking of going somewhere with my husband in a near time, but with the economy now, the budget is a little bit tight. I hope to find a good deal sooner. I crave for vacation, just the two of us.

My husband already reported to his new office, I pray that this new one suit him well, physically and most importantly, emotionally. Aameen. 

Now we can on call every morning and every evening when he returns from and to work. It takes almost one hour to reach his office. May Allah always protect him and give him a good health. Aameen. 

17.9.2020

Dear Diary,

It has been a while since I last  wrote something here. Life is working as usual. I took 2 days leave before Hari Malaysia. I spent my time at Perak with my beloved family and my husband, a well spent long weekend.

Yesterday, I drove back to KL, Alhamdulillah the traffic was clear. I dropped by Pah's house to visit her before continue my journey. Then dropped by Pak Ched's house at Denai Alam to give him laksa Kuale that he ordered. 

I arrived home at 730pm. And today is Thursday, tomorrow is Friday and then weekend again. Yeayyy! I love weekend. My husband said he's craving for Nasi Lemak Sambal Kerang, we will hunt you this weekend. Waitttt. Haha.

He always blame me when he gained weight because he said his appetite grew bigger whenever he's with me. Haha. I don't care because I love foods too. And will blame him too after we both fulled and regretted  the decision to eat everything that we craved for. Haha. 

9.9.2020

 Dear diary,

I’m currently laying on my bed waiting for Maghrib while browsing tiktok haha. I never thought that I’ll addict with tiktok but can’t deny that it offers more informative stuffs than you thought. You choose what you wanna see, such other social media platforms too. 

Today I had white rice with fried chicken and little bit meats for lunch. I was so full but then still had space for fried banana, this stomach always has space, always.  

I had two boring meetings this morning and I just nodded all the way long without digested it because my brain couldn’t absorb it haha. 

We can’t deny the fact that there’s a lot of stupid people around us. And we need to always be patience with this kind of people because even we argue about it, he/she is still the dumbest and we’re dumber. So just nod and smile. 

Yeay, tomorrow is Thursday already. Can’t wait for Friday, when my husband and I will reunite again. We plan to go to Kulim this weekend, to attend his cousin’s betrothal. 

May Allah ease our plan and journey. Aameen. Ok off for Maghrib. Tadaa. 

8.9.2020

Dear Diary,

Today I woke up from bed with ache all over my body, my husband said he felt the same way too, even we both went to sleep early yesterday. Probably it was because what we did last weekend. Workout like there's no tomorrow. Hehe.

After reached office and facetime my husband, I went to cafe to buy nasi lemak and fried chicken. The nasi lemak not tasty as before and the fried chicken a little bit oily. But still Alhamdulillah for the rezq.

As for today, I have no big task to fulfill, just here and there. So a bit relax. Oh yesterday we had visit from the big delegation and I had to stand for a long time with a high heel, must also be a reason for my body's ache today. Omg, I'm not just getting fatter but older, but hopefully wiser too hehe. 

I plan to visit my parents and my parents-in-law this weekend but still not decide the medium of transport. I already checked for ETS but no suitable options. I don't opt for bus because too lazy to travel to TBS. Maybe I just drive even feel lazy for that too. Haha. I don't know which part of life I'd happy to be diligent. 

I miss my husband, still and always. I miss the little girls at home too. I miss my family. When can I move back to my hometown? Huh. 

7.9.2020

 Dear Diary,

I'm at work now. I miss my husband dearly. I woke up this morning with a heavy heart because I miss him! This is my feeling every Monday's morning or each morning after we spent great time together. I think this is the pro and con of LDR. The feeling is indescribable but the moment to meet is the most waiting for.

Yesterday I accompanied him for rugby training at Petaling Jaya. Whilst he's training and coaching, I did some workout, even just for a short period, at least I sweat. I realise I'm fatter now and my husband didn't deny it either. Sadddd. Later we went for groceries shopping at St. Rosyam, he requested for our favourite meal, Nasi Daging. 

We bought all the necessary ingredients. Then we stopped by Secret Recipe, he's craving for something sweet he said, I can tell that he loves chocolates more than I do. While, I bought Mini Hokkaido Cheese. Omg, I love cheese. Chesse > Chocolate haha. 

Happy to cook for him and watch him eat my cook with a full appetite. Alhamdulillah, he's not picky when it comes to food. Then we had our evening nap. Before Maghrib, we watched KL Gengster 2 via Netflix (he chose it) while cuddling. Well spent weekend I guess. 

Dear Allah,

Thank you for this feeling, for our feeling for each other. May it continues to bloom till your jannah. Have mercy on us Ya Rabb, bless us. Aameen. 

5.9.2020

Dear Diary, 

I’m now accompanying my husband for his rugby match at IIUM rugby field. This is our first time here, IIUM is such a  beautiful university with Islamic structured building. 

After PKP, this is his first game. Missing to watch him playing but when he’s not playing I wouldn’t bother watching. Haha. 

This morning we went to Bangi to collect his rugby’s pant. Then we went for lunch at MZ Cafe Bangi, randomly chose by me and not recommended. 

Don’t know yet where to eat tonight. Suddenly I realised that I rarely cook for him now. But how? Our weekend mostly occupied with various of outdoor activities. Oh talking about that, tomorrow we must do some groceries shopping. 

After three weeks of not praying together, finally we prayed together for Zohor. Alhamdulillah. I love when he teased me by pinched my cheek softly when he reciting doa just now. So cute and that little thing also can make me happy. 🥰

Alhamdulillah ya Allah for this great weekend with a loving husband. May he always be the best for me and vice versa. Aameen. 

4.9.2020

 Dear Diary,

Starting from today I feel like I wanna write a simple journal (in english) daily, maybe once per 2 days or once a while, depends on my busyness. Hehe.

Today I woke up a bit late because I forgot to turn on my alarm, thanks to my body clock and Thanks God I'm still on my period.

I drove to the office as usual while listening to Ustaz Somad's talk. He talked about being kind to your parents while they're still here because once they gone, only God knows how it would feel.

That statement really startled my heart. I call them once a week, I pay them a visit once a month, sometimes I bring them to a vacation but I still feel it's not enough compared to what they already did to raise me.

Everyday I pray that God will give me opportunity to make them happy until one of us meet God again. May God grants my prayers.  

Once arrived office I take minutes of rest while browsing to the media social, updating myself with the current issues, political and social. I'm worried for what my timeline has showed me. World is getting older, people are getting nonsense. Oh Allah, protects us all from any doing that may invite your anger.

Then, as usual my beloved husband will facetime me before we both start our day at office. I'm very grateful that he is still whom I knew. He never fail to contact me daily, to cheer me up even we are distant. 

Thank you Sayang for your love and for always being thoughtful. May Allah is always with you, to protect you, to grant you wealth and health. I love you, lillahita'ala.

Dear Allah,

Thank you for still lending me my loving parents and my awesome husband. Thank you for your mercy and rezq. Thank you for granting me a stable job with a good pay, for providing my family and I the comfortable shelters. 

Alhamdulillah.

May Your Mercy always accompany us through out our path here and hereafter.